I just want to be happy.
I have put a years worth of my life and love into a relationship that I feel crap in.
I get told to ‘appreciate the time we spend together’ and ‘why do you always want more’
He makes me feel guilty for wanting to spend more than 1-2 days together… Mind you they’re not full days.
He makes me feel guilty, like I’m taking time away for him and seeing me is a chore.
I don’t want to feel guilty anymore.
I want to be loved, by everything I do.
I want someone to want to spend time with me.
I want someone to accept their feeling of being tired, and want to be tired and do nothing with me.
I am sorry ___ that I am not who you want me to be. You keep saying you love me ‘more’ and ‘you’re perfect’ but obviously I’m not to you.
I saw a photo today, and it was a little girl in the rain, screaming her lungs out… that is all I want to do right now is just scream. SO FUCKING LOUD.
Wish me an my emotionally challenging relationship well.