Dear Friend
Dear Friend,
Last night was a long, painful night. With 0 hours of sleep and 1000 thoughts running through my mind. The same one lurking around why would someone so lovely think that way about me? I have that horrid feeling, it was a once off thing? And that the boredom might set in soon if it already hasn’t for him… What can I do if he’s too good for me? Help.
-Kind thoughts always
Jenna
Dear Jenna Rose, do not let fear rule your life. Fear likes to keep us in our comfort zones – stretch by exploring life with this lovely person. Please do not ever doubt your worth.
xoxo Miranda Jane
Miranda Jane, thank you for your kind words. You have a similar thought process to me when it comes to fear. But for some reason it has overpowered my thoughts
… I wish I could, but this lovely person has so much going for him and I think what we had my be fading and feelings only being one way… I hope you are well xxo
Dear Jenna, that person your thinking of with their complex mind is closer to you than you think, do not let him put you down, he knows it’s complicated, he also knows it’s the most beautiful thing in the world. Certainty is the gift of life. it seems you two are without it, a life not ruled by whats right or wrong – your values collide – draw you closer – but certainty is the ultimate, the extreme, the catalyst for destruction. Love or Hate, the two strongest words in the english language. Tearing you two apart. They know your values yet they don’t understand them like they understand you.
Uncertainty is the basis of my destruction, it defines who i am not what i do. It is the reason i query everything you say. I cant live with myself thinking what you could be doing when i’m not around. Lately it seems quite the opposite, it’s your turn to be torn apart from uncertainty, as much as you both wish it were easy. Don’t let yourself be fooled by my stupid fucking mistakes, we can be whatever you want us to be, always full of complexity that no-one we know understands. I will be here for you if you need, but until the time comes, embrace yourself like i have and be who you are not what you can do. I will never get bored of you, but it is so hard to love when you constantly tell me it wont work or even that you don’t feel anywhere near the same way. I can forgive your mistakes, because mine are worse. In recent days, i thought it would be better if i could let you go, for your sake at least, but your ignorance and steady tongue gave me that idea. Now i see, i was as bad, so oblivious and naive, it is what it is. You’re the biggest challenge in my life, an obstacle i will never give up on.
You are the most desirable, you are my immortal.
Love Aidan.